Friday, March 10, 2006
got an mc today and skipped camp. it dosen't matter anyway, so many ppl are giving lame excuses not to go. it has been rather terrible for the past week. mood swings i guess, shir saw it all and she was like 'why you evryday also so pessimistic one? keep thinking of this and that'. so for the sake of myself and everyone i'll try to be happier(= worrying makes one age easily. lol.
i'm unable to bring myself to express how i feel. i wanted so much to say how much i'll miss you and stuff but i can't. in the end i appear not to care but actually i really do and i want you to know i care. i'm just bloody hell afraid that you won't give a damn about how i feel. araghhhhhh. i don't know what the hell i'm talking about lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i just want you to know i care okay?
so many things are happening at school and problems at home dosen't make anything easier. being at home completely sucks cause i have to deal with all the bloody nonscense.
i'm so contradicting. i just said i'll try to be happier and i end up fucked up now.
7:03 PM
